You know when you went through a lot of shit and then suddenly life just hit you hard and you fall hard. You fall so hard, that it's like effing painful to get back up. The struggle is real at that point of life. I faced that point. And it was the worse time of my entire 20 years of living. I complained, whined, cried and do all those kind of bullcrap to get anyone's attention. Trust me, after seeing how ridiculous I was. I totally stopped all that.
I was so angry at myself. I swear I turned into someone that is really so effing disgusting. Only those who are close to me knew the things I did before I decided to wear the hijab. I know most of you would have already gotten a glimpse of some of the things I did.
But let me tell you something. Don't ever let your past mistakes define who you are. I mean it, DON'T. Cause if you do, it will make it harder for you to learn and move on from it. I almost let it haunt me. You guys have to learn to let go. Because life is the world's greatest obstacle. Nothing hits you harder than it. You either dwell on the bad decisions and die from it, or learn from it and make the best out of everything that comes after.
It's not easy to get back up. I know. I went through it too. But always know that you're not alone. Open your eyes and see those who always was there for you even when you pushed them away or throw them aside. They are the ones who will never give up on you. Get close to them again. Have some laughs, get out and go on the simplest adventures that could at least make that smile appear again.
You're worth more than what the past gave you. Bad experiences are meant for learning, not for you to give up on yourself. Because everyone deserves a second chance at life, no matter how hard it gets. And if you're facing hardships now, remember that there's light at the end of the tunnel. Walk towards it and one day, you'll able to see and realize that the world still has a lot to offer. I'll have to tell myself that as well, everyday haha! Stay strong.
